urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt rammstein3000gt rammstein3000gt 2006-01-23T23:52:45Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:3267 2006-01-23T23:52:45Z 2006-01-23T23:52:45Z Rammstein-Wo Bist Du Ok, here's the scoop...I literally have no time to sit around and play with livejournal...aww, poor livey. But now that I have this new job where all I do is sit around and do whatever, I have all the time in the world. I've been out on a few dates with different girls, but none of them really interest me too much...just something about "typical" girls around here that just want me to decide to not even date anymore until I get out of college. There's so many things that I just dont like about the girls around here, and I guess I'll have to adopt to it....although I really dont want to. Why can't women respect themselves more around here? What the hell?<br /><br />Anyway, enough of that little rant...I'm going to White Lake this coming weekend for the first time since Christmas, and I'm going to have an AWESOME time....I'm ready to go right now, but unfortunately, there's a little something holding me back called College. I love my life, though, can't really complain...there's nothing to complain about. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:2931 2005-11-27T22:46:33Z 2005-11-27T22:46:33Z FUCK MUSIC FUCK FUCK FUCK ALL urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:2598 2005-11-22T02:55:36Z 2005-11-22T02:55:36Z Rammstein-Sehnsucht huh...thanksgiving and holiday shit. oh what fun. i dont enjoy thanksgiving or christmas anymore...ppl have forgotten what its all about. oh well. headed down to dads for thanksgiving then goin to myrtle beach...haha...i know...im hypocritical. yet again, ho well...yes, i did say ho...no oh...not a typo folks...got a new tattoo and hung out with robbie the whole weekend...it was so awesome...well thats all for now, people. goodnight and goodluck urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:2331 2005-11-15T22:42:48Z 2005-11-15T22:42:48Z I've been in a good mood all day...what the hell is wrong with me? I haven't been like this in a while, and I dont really have a good reason to be in such a good mood. Something is probably gonna come along to knock me down on my ass again, but oh well...imma try and enjoy it while it lasts. I talked to my advisor today, and all of my credits can be switched over internationally to the Germanic College Systems. SWEET! I've been listening to Rammstein for 3 hours straight, and I have no idea why. Just feeling in a Rammstein mood. My old friend from Berlin called me again today, and it looks like she's going to be going to the same college over there that I am! Friendships last forever, i guess!<br /><br />Maybe I shouldn't have asked her to come home with me this early...maybe I messed up!<br /><br />Der Wahnsinn<br />ist nur eine schmale Brucke<br />die Ufer sind Vernunft und Trieb<br />ich steig dir nach<br />das Sonnenlicht den Geist verwirrt<br />ein blindes Kind das vorwarts kriecht<br />weil es seine Mutter riescht<br /><br />Ich Finde dich<br /><br />Die Spur ist frischt und auf die Brucke<br />tropft dein Schweiss dein warmes Blut<br />ich seh dich nicht <br />ich reich dich nur Ich spure Dich<br />ein Raubtier das vor Hunger schreit<br />wittere ich dich meilenweit<br /><br />Du riescht so gut<br />Du riescht so gut<br />ich geh dir hinterher<br />du reischst so gut<br />ich finde dich<br />so gut<br />ich steig dir nach<br />du riescht so gut <br />gleich hab ich dich<br /><br />Jezt hab ich dich urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:2265 2005-11-15T22:35:03Z 2005-11-15T22:35:03Z Warmer Körper <br />heißes kreuz<br />falsches Urteil<br />kaltes Grab<br /><br />Auf dem kreuzer leig ich jetzt <br />sie schlagen mir die Nägel ein<br />das Feuer wäscht die Seele rein<br />und übrig bleibt ein Mündvoll urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:1836 2005-11-15T22:32:29Z 2005-11-15T22:32:29Z Du<br />du hast<br />du hast mich<br />du hast mich gefragt<br />du hast mich gefragt, und ich hab nichts gesagt<br /><br />Willst du bis ter Tod euch scheidet<br />treu ihr sein für alle Tage<br /><br />Nein<br /><br />Willst du bis zum Tod, der scheide<br />sie lieben auch in schlechten Tagen<br /><br />Nein urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:1672 2005-11-15T22:30:21Z 2005-11-15T22:30:21Z Zerstoren - Rammstein Wer zu Lebzeit gut auf Erden<br />wird nach dem Tod ein Engel werden<br />dein Blick gen Himmel fragst du dann<br />warum man sie nicht sehen kann<br /><br />Erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn<br />kann man uns am Himmel sehn<br />wir haben Angst und sind allein<br /><br />Gott weiß ich will kein Engel sein<br /><br />Sie leben hintern Sonnenschein<br />getrennt von uns unendlicht weit<br />sie müssen sich an Sterne krallen (ganz fest)<br />damit sie nicht vom Himmel fallen urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:1467 2005-11-15T22:25:36Z 2005-11-15T22:25:36Z Stirb nicht vor mir-Rammstein Lass mich deine Träne reiten<br />übers kinn nach Afrika<br />wieder in den Schoß der Löwen <br />wo ich einst zuhause war<br />zwischen deine langen Beinen<br />such den Schnee vom letzten Jahr<br />doch es ist kein Schnee mehr da<br /><br />Lass mich deine Träne reiten<br />über Wolken ohne Glück<br />der große Vogel schiebt den kopf <br />sanft in sein Versteck zurück<br />Zwischen deine langen Beinen <br />such den sand vom letzgen Jahr<br />doch es ist kein Sand mehr da<br /><br />Sehnsucht versteckt<br />sich wie ein Insekt<br />im Schlafe merkst du nicht<br />dass es dich sticht<br />glücklich werd ich nirgendwo<br />der Finger rutscht nach Mexiko<br />dock er ersinkt im Ozean <br />Sehnsucht ist so grausam urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:1030 2005-11-15T05:01:10Z 2005-11-15T05:01:10Z Lifehouse- You and Me When you think you've gotten over it all, you really haven't. And when you think you haven't, you have. That's the way things are working out right now. I really have no clue what to do about anything anymore. I'll be glad to put an end to this semester, and to these first two years. I've decided that as soon as I'm done with the first two years of my college career, I'm heading to Berlin. I need a change, and a change for the better. I've always said that I'd go, and no one has believed me, but they will, oh they will.<br /><br />Since nothing seems to be going my way, eh...idk. I hear a new life calling my name. Too bad it will take another year and a half to get there. I have no idea what I'm going to do in the meantime. All I know is that God willing, I'll be in Berlin in the next couple years. I just want to be happy, and it doesn't seem that it is going to happen anytime soon. I've given up on Anna. I can't keep making promises on uncertainties. I can't stand being in the position I am with her. I can't stand waiting between nowhere and goodbye. So I just wont. <br /><br />I think I want more. I know I shouldn't. I know that I should just put things in God's hands. I am better than this, so why am I going thru it? When will I learn that I can't control things and things will not always be the way I want them to be? I want to love again, and to feel like I have something other than myself to live for. <br /><br />Berlin...1 year and 3 months and counting...... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:947 2005-11-09T01:59:16Z 2005-11-09T01:59:16Z Komm in mein Boot<br />ein Sturm kommt auf<br />und es wird Nacht<br /><br />Wo willst du hin<br />so ganz allein<br />treibst du davon<br /><br />Wer halt deine Hand<br />wenn es dich<br />nach unten zeiht<br /><br />Wo willst du hin <br />so uferlos<br />die kalte See<br /><br />Komm in mein Boot<br />der Herbstwind halt <br />die Segel straff<br /><br />Jetzt stehst du da an der Laterne<br />hast Tranen im Gesicht<br />das Abendlicht verjagt sie Schatten<br />die Zeit steht still und es wird Herbst<br /><br />Komm in mein Boot<br />die Sehnsucht wird<br />der Steuermann<br /><br />Komm in mein Boot<br />der beste Seemann <br />war doch ich<br /><br />Jetzt stehst du da an der Laterne<br />hast Tranen im Gesicht<br />das Feuer nimmst du von der Kerze<br />die Zeit steht still und es wird Herbst<br /><br />Sie sprachen nur von deiner Mutter<br />so gnadenlos ist nur die Nacht <br />am Ende bleib ich doch alleine<br />die Zeit steht still und mir ist kalt urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:634 2005-11-09T01:53:02Z 2005-11-09T01:53:02Z Believe- Disturbed I have no idea what is going to happen in the next few days, and I usually do. It's really bothering me. I feel like I need to give Anna a second chance, because she is genuinely sorry for what she did, and I understand that, and forgive her for that. I would like to give our relationship another try...I just don't want to look back on those two years and say that they were for nothing. But there's something that keeps holding me back. I've realized that everything that is going on is pretty much pointless. Whatever happens will happen, and what is meant to be will be. It just drives me crazy to realize that I have no idea what that is right now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rammstein3000gt:279 2005-11-06T20:38:12Z 2005-11-06T20:38:12Z Save Me- Remy Zero and Rammstein A lot of thinking and some fun this weekend. . . I went to Myrtle Beach with my dad, and we had a pretty good time, even though we did a thing or two that I regret. He said these things were something he wanted to do with me to take my mind off of Anna, but I guess it really didn't help much. I still have so much to think about, and it really scares me. For seemingly the first time in my life, I have no idea what I want to do about anything. It feels like I'm just going day by day and just making it through the hours. I need something to take my mind off of this. I can honestly say I don't know what I want. There just seems like there's so much to think about. The only thing that I could have done this weekend that would have really taken my mind off my situation for a while would have been getting another tattoo, or having the one I already have worked on some more, but come to find out, tattooing is illegal in South Carolina. Go figure. . . stupid state, stupid laws. I don't know what I want to do, but I do know that there is someone out there that makes me feel a way that Anna never could, and probably never can. I call her "Red".